BUNNEHBEAR iz not a bear, iz bunneh!

Oh hai!

2009-07-18T06:43:49Z

Oh hai!
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Open Salon literary folk of the now

2009-07-17T08:55:51Z

Open Salon literary folk of the now
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They've met me as an out gay man. Now they are drinking. Tortured
literary souls.

She's welcoming me!

2009-07-17T03:33:35Z

She's welcoming me!
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Chiron for those with audio/visual links in your thinking patterns

2009-07-16T01:24:30Z

I found this while researching Chiron's return. It's a nice piece for meditation.

Taking a leap of faith...

2009-07-15T21:24:15Z

So many exciting things are happening in my life. In some ways it feels like the last year has been designed to strip me of many layers of accumulated restrictions - self imposed and those laid on me by others. Here and now, I'm pretty much stripped to the essential core and ready to enter the next phase of this life.

I've been approached to test my interest in becoming a massage instructor. This is very exciting for me. My 40's have been the Age of Reconciliation as I've come to truly value life affirming touch. First, I had to recognize the scars from unhealthy touch. Then, I had to learn to forgive my perpetrators and myself. Then, I learned how to accept touch before I could learn to administer healing touch through massage and energy work. Now, I stand on the edge of making a career of sharing the gift of healthy touch with like minded individuals.

It has been quite a ride!

There are many 'reasons' why I may be disqualified for a teaching position. Some are sound, like a requirement to work in the field for three years. (I can claim two and a half.) Others are not so sound, such as a Victorian attitude about the spa where I work. Regardless, I trust the Universe to unravel this experience as it will. I am simply here; ready to accept whatever reality arises.

[Thanks to those of you who encouraged me to restart my posting. I've moved to facebook. I like the popularity of the site (who knew so many people remember their high school days? I've been too busy living to hold onto those memories!) But I like livejournal's more literary format. That said, I can't quite bring myself to write in the literate style of Open Salon. I may soon pare down my friends list a la greenfairie with a respond or delete posting!]

Chiron returns

2009-07-14T20:50:10Z

I'm bound for Vegas for the weekend! Meeting a friend, and former lover, for a weekend celebrating life.

**It's been so long since I've posted here! Anyone miss me?**

Hafiz of the now

2009-04-28T05:32:28Z

SOME FILL WITH EACH GOOD RAIN

There are different wells within your heart
Some fill with each good rain,
Others are far too deep for that.

In one well
You have just a few precious cups of water.

That "love" is literally something of yourself,
It can grow as slow as a diamond,
If it is lost.

Your love
Should never be offered to the mouth of a
Stranger.

Only to someone
Who has the valor and the daring
to cut pieces of their soul off with a knife

Then weave them into a blanket
To protect You.

There are different wells within us,
Some fill with each good rain.

Others are far, far too deep
For that.

bunnehbear is loving life!

Hafiz for today...

2009-04-20T18:01:53Z

A Barroom View of Love

I would not want all my words
To parade around this world
In pretty costumes,

So I will tell you something
Of the Barroom view of Love.

Love is grabbing hold of the Great Lion's mane
And wrestling and rolling deep into Existence

While the Beloved gets rough
And begins to maul you alive.

True Love, my dear,
Is putting an ironclad grip upon

The sore, swollen balls
Of a Divine Rogue Elephant

And
Not having the good fortune to Die!

Yay!

2009-04-09T04:49:10Z

I graduated National Holistic Institute's Massage Therapist and Health Educator program tonight...

with a second letter of excellence...

and honors....

and a student services award...

and an academic achievement award...

Yay, me!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

(there were only two special awards given, they both are at my house...I'm so touched!)

Thank you...

Transcendental moment

2009-04-02T05:33:50Z

I graduate NHI a week from today. It has been an incredible journey; at times I wanted to give up and other times I wanted to do nothing but be in class.

Tonight was transcendental. Supine hot stone work was the topic, but I worked in aromatherapy and energetic bodywork with gemstones selected to resonate with the chakras (black tourmaline, smoky quartz, turquoise, bismuth, astrophyllte and apophylite.) As I started working on my client in the classroom, the heat from the basalt stones enhanced the vibration of the gemstones opening my client's chakras to a level I've never experienced before. She was ready, I was ready, the energy was flowing...

Then goobers in class started banging roaster lids and laughing while they dropped stones. Our sacred space was being crowded, so I curtailed the session, zipped her back up making sure her chakras were connected.

After the session, my client reported tremendous energy shifts. She said she felt her legs connect with the rest of her energy body in a way that rarely happens. WooHoo!

What a wonderful gift the universe has provided! I am most grateful to all my teachers, especially Marja West.

Love and light, y'all!

edited for spelling errors found

Thank you, Universe!

2009-01-10T06:15:33Z

I appreciate your abundance! Thanks for sharing.

greenfaerie88 made me do it...

2009-01-07T01:18:28Z

If there are (one or more) people on your friends list who make your world a better place, just because they exist, & whom you would not have met (in real life or not) without the internet, then post this same sentence in your journal.

Flat line

2009-01-06T22:44:59Z

This sums up my past two weeks rather well.
If it looks like fun from where you are sitting, look again.

On the positive side (what there is a positive side????), I only have 49 more nights of class before I graduate! Not that I have the energy to get there tonight, I'm afraid.

Life in the City

2008-12-26T21:35:35Z

So, I'm back in SF. And just in case I might have been confused, the Universe provided me with an awesome sight this morning. As I walked from my car to my office, I passed a single homeless man on the sidewalk. In his left hand was a bottle of vodka and in his right was a Japanese sword. Swoosh!

Needless to say, I gave him wide berth.

Actually, the best return greeting I had was to be found in the eyes of my Castro neighbors who smiled at me as I walked to the video store Christmas eve. I was attracting so much attention that I had to check my fly and make sure I wasn't displaying my pride and joy.

It's good to be home!

LOL catfish of the now!

2008-12-23T22:13:17Z

LOL catfish of the now!
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Yum!

Bball game of now.

2008-12-21T02:04:28Z

Bball game of now.
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The opposing team has a point guard with my ex's name.

Fayettenam of the now

2008-12-20T21:22:59Z

Fayettenam of the now
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Jesus drives an SUV

2008-12-20T17:53:27Z

Jesus drives an SUV
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And he buys gas at WalMart. Woot!

Time travel complete.

2008-12-20T04:05:37Z

Time travel complete.
Originally uploaded by randypd

Luggage escaped vortex and is still in Cali. Boo.

Good night sun.

2008-12-20T01:31:17Z

Good night sun.
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It's a short day for me.

I've been quiet about the tremors of flashbacks roiling through my
life these past two weeks. I think I was dismissing them myself until
they became moderately severe. To quote Jameth, "I don't know what
they are doing but it sure looks exciting "
I'm taking it as a positive sign of release and unwinding to come. Or
I've been reading too many books on fascia

Hold that plane. I'm coming.

2008-12-19T22:53:18Z

Hold that plane. I'm coming.
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Lucy's ready to get on the road!

2008-12-19T19:18:34Z

Lucy's ready to get on the road!
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But she's going to see as much as she can. Here's looking at you!

Winter Fly Over State Landing

2008-12-18T23:21:41Z

I'll be visiting Arkansas and Oklahoma until Christmas Eve. Pray for me!

Each year, as I return to visit my family, I find dissonance between who they think I am and who I know myself to be. You'd think that after almost 50 years to get acclimated to the concept of my existence that things like communication and fellowship would get easier. That has not been the case, unfortunately. Instead, the older my family members get, the more they are locked into thinking in the old ways. (actually as I think on this, age nor family has anything to do with it.....people don't like it when one changes. Stay the same, dammit!)

Regardless of family attitudes, I feel bound to go visit because my beloved uncle, Robert, cannot walk or move his body. He deserves a visit, and he sees much more clearly than his more mobile relations. I look forward to seeing him and I hope that I don't cry too much when I must bid him farewell again.

I'll be posting photos as I travel...enjoy them!

Happy Holidays, Y'all!!!!

P.S. All I want for Christmas is for my families, blood and chosen, to see me for who I am and embrace what they see. I'd love to move into a new year with the gift of open minds and hearts. I'll be opening mine more when I return and celebrate solstice. (Ugh, Solstice in Arkansas....I can pretend it happens a few days later, NO?)
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View from here.

2008-12-16T01:43:46Z

View from here.
Originally uploaded by randypd

I like this photo. It is a little disturbing.

Muni Noir

2008-12-10T01:41:45Z

Muni Noir
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